3rd of July

Near-disaster making ribs.  Smoking without a drip pan because I get away with it usually.  Had a pretty bad grease fire while I had the lid open spritzing them.  Pulled the ribs, took out some wood that had grease on it, let the rest burn off.

The ribs weren’t perfect.  The grease and too much early smoke gave them a hint of acridity that bugged me quite a bit, but enough else was right with them that they were salvaged.  I think Andy and Vick were the only other people who noticed.  Andy ate like a hundred of them, and everybody else seemed to like ’em a lot, so in the end I felt like they were on the right side of terrible.

Similar near-disaster at the park.  We light off fireworks in the middle of the ballfield there.  People aren’t exactly far away, but these are pretty standard-issue fireworks, nothing artillery-grade.  One of the multi-shot rocket things must have been made towards the end of a double shift.  It didn’t have enough sand in it.  The first load knocked the firework on its side, sending subsequent loads a) into the backstop, b) right at a couple of kids, who scattered and spent the rest of the evening watching from a couple hundred yards away, and c) right at my wife, who got a burn mark in her skirt for her trouble.

We should make a little enclosure for the things next year.

 

 

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Fighting

My brother and I used to beat on each other, but there was some kind of code. We only punched each other in the back. But it was more or less constant.

Eventually, my dad got us both boxing gloves, and we’d whale on each other that way. Even then, head shots weren’t really part of the deal. We never discussed them. Just weren’t done.

My brother is much bigger than I am, and even before he passed me in height, he had me beat on wingspan. Fortunately, he has about as much of a killer instinct as I do, so our boxing matches were mostly the steam release that my father had hoped they would be.

One day, when I was 10 and my brother was 8, I punched him squarely in the face with a jab, right in the eye. He got this shocked, emotionally hurt look on his face and started to cry. I remember it vividly. I felt terrible.

That’s the last time I punched someone.

A few years later, a few years older.  Nice summer evening.  Touch football in Bonner Park with my friends. Other team was some kids from Sentinel, which was the jock high school on the other side of town.

The Doss kids were on the other team. Ulysses Doss (amazing name) was an African-American studies professor at University of Montana. His kids, Kim and Mike, were athletes, good ones.

The game got a little chippy at some point. We weren’t really strong buds with these guys; we just all found ourselves at the park at the same time. I tagged Mike Doss kind of hard, and he fell on his ass. He threw the ball at me. I said whatever the 1984 equivalent was of WTF. He got up and was all like “WTF yourself,” and he knocked off my baseball cap. And then he shoved me.

I get mad rarely, and when it happens, it doesn’t last very long. But I do get there, it’s a total meltdown.

In this case, I had a Sentinel jock (both descriptors being meaningful at that age) getting all bitchy at me for knocking him to the ground, during a football game. Which was irritating. But then he had to challenge me physically. So…everything went kind of red. I lunged at him with both fists up.

I cannot stress enough how stupid this was. I was a scrawny kid of 14 or whatever, and I had never been in a real fight. I wasn’t in bad shape, but it was soccer shape and nothing that was going to aid me in pursuing some act of aggression. Mike Doss was all sinew and quick-twitch muscle, a sprinter and basketball player, like 4% body fat and probably someone who had been in a fight, if anyone else had been dumb enough to engage him.

Miraculously, two or three of my friends took it upon themselves to grab me. One of them grabbed my right arm. Leading with my right, ugh. I would have been killed. The other one or two grabbed the rest of me.

It was awesome, perfect. It appeared that I was going to be a badass and fight this kid, but I didn’t have to lose any teeth or otherwise endure the beating I surely would have gotten. As far as anyone else knew, I got “held back” from exacting vengeance.

I don’t think I ever thanked these friends of mine adequately. I should do that at some point before we all get old and die.

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Roasting marshmallows

Two schools:

1. Classical
2. Art brut

The Classical school of marshmallow roasting requires significant technical ability and proper tools, as well as an appropriate environment within which to roast.

The roasting stick should be one of the following:

  • A long, slender, stiff branch of green wood (dry wood will burn too readily)
  • A non-painted wire coat hanger, unwound to be more or less straight
  • Some sort of specialized marshmallow-roasting spear, purpose-built for the endeavor

The Classical roasting environment is ideally a dying fire of dried hardwood or lump charcoal. Paper and charcoal briquettes should be avoided, as they produce ash in quantity, and ash will stick readily to a roasting marshmallow. The fire should be burned down to embers before endeavoring to roast a marshmallow, though skilled roasters can manage to produce good work with a flame.

In a pinch, a more static source of heat is sometimes acceptable. A stove burner, propane torch or grill, Bic lighter, etc.  Lack of wood smoke puts the Classical roaster at a distinct handicap, and optimal results should be considered impossible.

Classical roasting technique requires that the roasting stick is held perpendicular to the heat source, as to expose the surface of marshmallow maximally to the heat. The marshmallow must be near enough the heat source to roast slowly to a golden brown, but not so close that it roasts rapidly, the interior having failed to melt to the point of goo. Once positioned, the roasting stick must be rotated at a speed sufficient to keep the marshmallow from igniting, but it must not be rotated so quickly that one obtains the dreaded “pale crust” condition.

The Art Brut school of marshmallow roasting requires only a marshmallow, sufficient heat to set it aflame, and any mechanism by which to distance the roaster from the heat source.  The outside is burnt black. It is then removed and eaten. The remaining marshmallow matter is then burnt anew, the outside is removed and eaten, and the process is repeated until the marshmallow is gone.

It is for savages.

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Tour tale #1

Silkworm had set out on another U.S. tour, and our van’s differential had just shit the bed outside of Butte, Montana. Had gotten it “fixed” before we left Seattle, but that is another story.

Our guitar player was moving to Chicago to go to law school. We were supposed to dump his stuff in Chicago on the way through.  We had been towing a trailer with the van, which contained most of his possessions, and he was driving his 1966 Plymouth Valiant.

We were driving around Butte in the Valiant, five of us including our soundman, trying to figure out the best way out of this mess.

We’d been there for two days already.  In Butte, you:

  • putz around
  • survey the beat-to-shit Victorian mansions
  • eat crappy food in the casinos and at Taco John’s
  • go see the Berkeley Pit and try not to breathe too much

We’d had to cancel two shows and stood to cancel more if we waited for our van to get fixed. It was Friday afternoon, and the parts hadn’t made it in.  Best case, we’d lose the weekend plus drive time to the East Coast.  The tour (with Dianogah) would move on without us, and it would be tough to catch up.

Driving around Butte.  Ho hum.  What to do.  We passed by Pissers Palace, a semi-legendary biker bar where we would not be welcome.  Which reminded me of Evel Knievel.  Evel was the most famous Butte export of all-time.

I used to have an Evel Knievel doll.  Or maybe it was my brother’s.  Little polyester Fat Elvis jacket and bell-bottoms.  We were obsessed with Evel for a year or so, which seems like forever when you’re a kid.  Like lots of other kids, we made little ramps and shot our bikes off them as high and far as we could.  I have a scar on the meaty part of my palm.  Wipeout, sharp rock, four stitches.  No comparison to Evel having broken every bone in his body but his malleus.

Evel was insane professionally and maybe not that great a guy personally.  But he had icon status for a while in the 70s, and always in this town.  The guys at the garage ran him down when I brought him up casually, but even they had a signed EK poster in the front of the shop.

Driving around Butte.  Trying to figure it out.  We took a road up around the top of a hill.  We drove up over the crest, and we started to come down the other side.

Down the road a quarter of a mile was a truck with a film crew hanging out the back of it.  We looked them over as we drove by, but they were focused on the top of the hill behind us.

Suddenly, the truck we had just passed moved by us and into our lane.  They were tracking something coming up the road behind us.  Everyone in the car turned to look back up the hill, and we saw a faint dot moving at some speed.  The dot grew near.  Motorcycle.  A bit nearer, and a helmet came into view.  Painted like an American flag.

“That’s not….”  A couple of seconds later, Evel Knievel or someone dressed like him rode past us.

We took a right at the bottom of the hill and drove by Pissers Palace one more time.  The camera truck was there, and a mildly chopped bike with a red, white, and blue gas tank was parked in the street, in front of maybe thirty other bikes.  An old man stood on the sidewalk, among a bunch of other bikers, helmet off.  Weathered, wizened, still pretty tough-looking.  It was unmistakeably him.

We asked ourselves what Evel Knievel would do.  The question was not hypothetical.  It was a legitimate question born of circumstance.  What would Evel do, in our position?

The consensus was that Evel would suck it up.  He was a force of nature, not to be buffeted about fate, as we had allowed ourselves to be.

It was maybe seven o’clock in the evening.  We drove to Wal-Mart and got a cartop carrier.  We drove back to the garage.  We unloaded as much of the van as we dared.  We crammed as much of our shit as we could into the carrier and the trunk of the Valiant.  We got all five of us in the car and put the guitars on the laps of the three people in the back seat.  We gassed up, and we drove fifteen hundred miles to Chicago in twenty-four hours.

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The Grateful Dead, Part Two

[continued from Part One]

The car in question is an Audi A4 Avant.  Avant is what Audi calls a station wagon.  Audi makes seductive cars.  They are well-designed with respect to visuals and ergonomics.  It feels good to look at the cars, it feels good to sit in the cars, and it feels good to drive them.  They have interiors that are nicer than they should be for the money, keeping in mind that they aren’t cheap to begin with.  They are quick enough to feel powerful and get good enough mileage to feel responsible.

Audi also has a reputation for being flaky with respect to quality control.  The reputation is deserved.  To wit, our car, which was using (burning) something like a quart of oil every five hundred miles by the time it was twelve thousand miles old.  It ended up in the shop for ten days, where it had its piston rings replaced.

My wife and I grew up poor.  Food stamps, government cheese, powdered milk.  We made not very much money at all for the first twenty years we were together.  Not having much money was perceived as a problem.

Since then, we’ve had some good fortune.  We took advantage of the long housing boom to lever into and fix up and make profits on two houses and lever into a third that is all the house we would ever have wanted and more.  And I’ve compromised myself and worked hard enough to make some money over the last few years.

Now that we have a little money, we have to find new problems.  A good new problem, if you have a little money, is how you’re going to hang onto that money and avoid being poor again.  Sooner or later, one of two things happens:

1.  You become a Republican.

2.  You remember that being poor, while suboptimal, isn’t so bad as long you can keep a roof over your head etc.  And you’re a long way from being poor right now.

Either way, you need to find another good new problem.

Enter the entry-level luxury car.  Despite what your prejudices may tell you, Audis and BMWs and Land Rovers serve a useful purpose on the planet.  These finicky, seductive, and ultimately ridiculous vehicles give people with a little money something new and ultimately ridiculous to worry about.  (If you have a lot of money…well, a car is not going to do it.  You’ll have to buy a boat, or a plane perhaps.)

By the time this car left the shop and returned to our garage, it was clear that we won’t be keeping it beyond the expiration of its warranty.  There are other things to worry about.   The passing of time, the mounting responsibility of middle age, many other trivial matters of great importance.  One must keep abreast of these things.  You want to have regrets on your deathbed.

I do not, however, want to be the kind of person who passes along a lemon.  The pointless angst of owning an entry-level luxury car serves its purpose, as noted, and I don’t believe in karma, but I have some self-respect, and selling someone a lemon is rude.

I had to be certain this vehicle (whatever future misfortune may befall it) was no longer burning, pardon me, USING oil.  Which is how I came to drive the ‘family car’ to work every day, leaving my wife our ten-year-old Subaru Forester (total oil burned over ten years of ownership: zero quarts) to ferry our daughter to school and piano lessons and so on.

Which is how I came to listen to satellite radio every day for an hour or so, during my commute.

Which is how I came to find myself listening, actively, on a regular basis, on purpose, while alone, to the Grateful Dead.

[to be continued]

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Couldn’t You Wait?: The Story of Silkworm

A Silkworm documentary has been in the works for the last six years.

Saw a rough cut this weekend.

Unbelievably accurate, both in the details and in capturing the spirit of the band. I couldn’t have done it, even if I’d had the desire or ability to do it.

It is disorienting to be historicized. I don’t like nostalgia. I don’t commemorate things or reminisce much unless it serves as a commentary on the present somehow. I like to regard things as a continuum, you know?

The film forces me to acknowledge the past, and it forces me to recognize a break in the line between now and back when Andy and I started making music together, as kids. Some amazing footage of Ein Heit being interviewed. Andy must be 14.

Of course Michael’s death is always with me, but a less crushing but still very painful death was that of SKWM. Since Andy and I kept playing music together, I don’t think about that one so much. The movie forces me to think about it.

That said…wow. I’m not sure I have ever owed anyone in my life the way I owe Seth Pomeroy about now. I barely even took any pictures, and now we have this. So flattering, but still to scale.  So impeccably done using such minimal source material.  It’s pitch perfect.  “Oh, it would be nice if he used that one picture right here…shit, there it is.”

Extraordinarily touched, inordinately pleased. On the verge of tears. A bit dizzy.

Thank you Seth, Shawn, Garland, Gerard, Steve, Stephen, Jeff, Heather, Vickie, TK, Dad, Mom, a couple families worth of Browns, everyone else who is in it or talked to these guys or sent them stuff.

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The Grateful Dead, Part One

I grew up in Missoula, Montana.  It is an oasis of liberal thought and attitude in the state.  It would be such an oasis in most states.  Montana tends to be libertarian with a small “L.”  You may do what you like, as long as you don’t have to cross my land to do it.  Missoula adds a healthy (nay, overwhelming) dose of laissez-faire liberalism.  It’s laid-back even for a college town:  a crossroads and a flytrap for grizzled drifters, shiftless kids, burnouts young and old, and people with their shit more together who just want to get off the rest of the world for, like, ever, man.

The last time I was in Missoula, it was absolutely covered with marijuana.  The town’s noted laxness, collegiate population, and strategic importance (on I-90 and an easy schlep to Canada) have made it a popular lay-by for the drug trade, but recent legalization by referendum of ‘medical marijuana’ opened the floodgates.  Dispensaries were everywhere.  In-house doctors, myriad strains per place.  The works, potsmoker near-Nirvana.  A heretofore more-or-less suppressed aspect of the town’s personality had been allowed to take the wheel and drive the place pretty far out there, and quickly.  I am no prude and would just as soon see pot legal as not, but I was stunned.  Every local to whom I commented, my parents, old friends, parents of friends, friends of friends, just shrugged.  It’s not on my land, I can overlook it, not in a position to care about it one way or the other.

Growing up in Missoula, I was surrounded by an awful lot of music typical of this kind of environment.  Hippie standbys of shitty electric blues, any boogie varietal, absolutely anything with a reggae upstroke.  And most assuredly anything that conjured up, mimicked, aped slavishly the creaky meanderings of the Grateful Dead.

The Dead were a mystery to me.  I felt like I understood the rest of it.  I liked an awful lot of reggae, understood weed especially when cocktailed with its Missoula sidecar of any kind of beer, got how it kind of flattened everything out to the point where something like Buju Banton or Burning Spear completely phoning it in wouldn’t sound terrible.  I saw the line from Elmore James to Son House to BB King to Robert Cray (who played Missoula constantly early in his career) to whatever fossil or playactor was at the Top Hat on a given weekend.  Boogie is boogie; it’s never good and any variety of it is going to make a hippie dance, and let’s try to pretend it doesn’t exist beyond that.  But the Dead.  Bafflement.  The slippery playing felt lazy, not relaxed.  Are they really polyrhythms when you’re just playing whatever the hell you want?  The sounds they created were so tiny and dorky.  The songs were occasionally OK, often pointless, occasionally so stupidly diffuse that they were almost not there but there sure enough, no matter how you wished they weren’t.  I didn’t get it.

I worked at used record stores during my formative years, good ones, and filing records one day, I realized we had copies of every single Warner Brothers/Arista-issued Grateful Dead record in the store.  In the Dark had just been released; as I recall the total was 18 records, which I only remember because I was 18yrs old at the time.  I apprised my friend Tom Kipp of these facts.  Tom is a few years older than me, enough to have a head start as a student of music and far more obsessive about it than I have ever been (and I have always been somewhat obsessive about it).  I suggested we spend the weekend, Friday evening through however long it took into Sunday, working our way through the entire catalog.  Tom agreed immediately, as expected.

Wake of the Flood was all right, American Beauty was all right, and Workingman’s Dead was actually a pretty decent album.  The other records had their moments.  I figured ten or fifteen minutes of notable guitar playing, some singing that was appealingly broken, and a very occasional turn of phrase that was interesting.  Over eighteen records, several of them double albums.  The rest of it ranged from pedestrian to foggy-headed to annoyingly lame, and I figured I’d figured it out.

When you buy a car, especially today, chances are very good that you are going to get more technology on it than you need or want.  They all come crammed with backup cameras and shitty electronic compasses and self-leveling headlights and navigation systems that will be out of date in two years.  You can’t work on them, you need a computer to do a tune-up, but they have zoned heating and rain-sensing headlights.  Such is automotive life in the modern age.  A couple of years ago, we bought a new family car, and one of the seemingly unnecessary things it had on it was satellite radio.

Satellite radio is one of those things you don’t need until you have it, at which point access to the Andrew Loog Oldham and Kim Fowley shows on the Garage station seems pretty important.  Access to the Margaritaville station, not so much, and I found myself for kicks landing on the Grateful Dead station with some frequency.  Remarkable to hear my lovely wife evince such immediate disgust.  A casual musician in her youth, yet so viscerally affected by the offensiveness of that particular guitar sound.  My lovely daughter whining, instantly, literally the moment the pitter-pat of multiple drum kits plus hand percussion came spilling from the speakers.  It was better than playing the I’m Going to Change My Name game or the What is your Favorite Billy Joel Song game or any other thing I had ever done to annoy my loved ones intentionally.

[to be continued]

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Cycle of worries

1. I have no food. If solved, go to 2.
2. I have no clothing. If solved, go to 3.
3. I have no shelter. If solved, go to 4.
4. I have no money. If solved, go to 5.
5. I have no car. If solved, go to 6.
6. I have no job. If solved, go to 7.
7. I don’t make enough money. If solved, go to 8.
8. I have not yet amassed enough money to calm my fears about possible difficulties in the immediate future.  If solved, go to 9.

9. My car sucks.  If solved, go to 10.

10. My job sucks. If solved, go to 11.

11. The stuff I have is inadequate.  If solved, go to 12.

12. I have too much stuff. If solved, go to 13.

13. I have no time to do the things I used to do when I didn’t have money.  If solved, go to 14.

14. I have no purpose in life.  If solved, go to 15.

15. I have some kind of health issue that keeps from fulfilling my purpose in life.  If solved, go to 16.

16. Someone I know has some kind of problem that distracts me.  If solved, go to 17.

17. Go to 9-15, indexed as appropriate, or at random.

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Next Restaurant in Chicago

Everything was great, but the pressed duck was overwhelming.

Most of the time, if I am lucky enough to eat something incredible, I just think “holy shit, this is good.” I am in New Orleans, and I just thought “holy shit, this is good” about my lunch today.

Every now and then, food is so good that thinking goes out the window. I’ll kinda forget where I am and not be able to talk for a while. Even more rarely, I will also have a very strong emotional reaction to whatever it is. Has happened, like, three times, ever.

When I took my first couple bites of the pressed duck at Next, the dedication and love in that dish poured over me. Everything that went into it, all at once.

Someone raised this duck in a specific way, cared for it, fed it exactly what it should have been fed, killed it carefully. Someone else took this immaculate dead duck and honored it by preparing it perfectly. The method had been tweaked into perfection by someone else who respected his own dead duck and loved food just as much as the people who used this method now, over a hundred years later and over four thousand miles away.

I teared up. I couldn’t talk. My wife was talking about how good it was, and no reflection on her, but it was like bubbity bubbity buh. Background noise–didn’t hear a word of it. When I was done with the first couple bites, I could not believe I got to eat more of it.

Plus it came with the best potatoes au gratin ever.

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Lillie’s Q in Chicago

One in a spate of ‘urban barbecue’ places that have popped up in Chicago. Excuse me, I mean ‘urban BBQ.’

Ate the ‘whole hog dinner’ last night with workmates.

It looked great. Small hog. No head or feet, which was disappointing. Dude was nice, and he talked about it for ten minutes.  Marginally interesting, but I wanted to eat. Then he whisked it away and picked all the meat off it and kind of rationed it out in piles, like here’s the tenderloin, here’s the bacon. Here’s a little piece of the bark for you.

I hate the rationing thing that ‘urban BBQ’ places like these guys and Smoque do. Give me a plate of meat. I do not care about your sides. Score the hog and leave it on the table. I want ALL THE BARK.

Anyway, it was OK. ‘Competition barbecue’ is polite food in general. Not aggressively seasoned, not aggressively smoked, infantilized with candying and mostly soft meat. Dead standard, aimed at the median.

If I’d paid for it, I would have been bummed out. It was expensive.

Fried pickles were good.

Totally edible. Two stars.

In other news, I’ve been going to Honey 1. Had great ribs a couple weeks ago and pretty good ribs last week.  It’s not Lem’s, but it’s on the way home from work.

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